Dedicated to all the brave warriors I know

I want to get up and smile
The first thing in the morning.
I try, but I can't.
I want to wake up and jump off my bed,
I try, but I can't.
My legs feel heavy and mind benumbed.
I want to tweak my resume,
Re-write my cover letter
And fill out those application forms online.
I try, but I can't.
I want to hang out with friends,
But I can't.
I eat when I am full
But starve myself when I am supposed to eat.
I cry, I cry for no reason at all.
My eyes, my poor eyes,
I want to stop sobbing at night.
I try, but I can't.
Some nights I sleep too much
Other nights I am sleepless.
I am irritable, I am restless.
I am hopeless and totally helpless.
But I don't give up.
Giving up is out of the question
'cause I know the sun will rise soon
Sooner than you all think.
And my life will begin anew.

By Wara Karim